Moving

All of my hard work has paid off and I recieved a call last week from my boss asking how soon I intended to move down to Cincinnati because I was going to be moved from just a work-from-home-temp into a temp-to-hire in a different department. I have to move to Cincinnati by Nov 29th! So of course this means extended conversations with my fiance about how we're going to make this work, asking for help from my Cincy friends on where on earth I could live, looking online, figuring a budget, saving as much of my money as I can until I move so I have a bit of a buffer, etc etc. I'll admit, it's really stressful! But I'm also really excited. The last time I spent an extended period down there was a really great experience and I can't wait to be back there getting reacquainted with those people I met before. PLUS (this is my favorite part) I'll have normal working hours and nights off. SO EXCITED!

On a different note, my poor fiance has had a rough month or so at the new job he took the day before my surgery. He gets up at 3am or earlier so he can be there by 4:30 and sometimes ends up working until 5 or later! It's ridiculous and it's killing not just his energy but also his spirit and it's rather contagious. This morning he called after his first delivery to tell me he has a meeting tomorrow at the store he used to manage and we're both hopeful that they'll take him back, not necessarily as the manager but as something, anything. This in itself will make it easier for him to move to Cincy with me after the wedding, if that's what we decide we want to do. He will also be happier with set hours, more time for sleep, for life, and I'm really excited for him.

Happier note, on Halloween the only seasonal activity my dear Clyde and I got to do was bake some pumpkin-shaped ginger cookies and then frost and decorate them with candy corn, sprinkles and red crystals. SO fun, and very tasty!

Hope you're having a great week!

Daydreams...

Yesterday while I was working, for once without any noise in the background, I began to day dream.

Now, day dreaming is a normal thing, even when there is noise I daydream and now that I'm getting married the wedding is a frequent subject. This time, however, it wasn't at all. Instead, I daydreamed about

My children.

Johnny and I have discussed when we intend to start trying for children and we've talked about what names we like (Ellen, Liam, Lanie...) so it was easy to daydream about our hypothetical son Liam and his hypothetical problems. As a woman I often fear that I will be the world's worst mother, that my kids will grow up to be jerks and selfish and snobby and any other bad thing I could think of so as I daydreamed I began to think of things I would do and the stories I would tell them to help them not become "that" guy/girl when they grow up.

I especially was thinking about my daughter, assuming I have one. I daydreamed that she had come home from school in tears because someone or other was mean to her or certain people didn't seem to like her, etc, we all know the drill. And I, as her understanding mother, sat down with her to let her know that what certain other people thought really didn't matter and went on to tell the story of my childhood.

I wanted to be friends with the popular crowd. I was painfully shy and hated standing out as different. In third grade I dressed up a day early for picture day and cried when I found out, and later that year I was so worried about being the only person to wear shorts to school that I actually called one of my friends every morning to find out if she was wearing shorts so I wouldn't be alone. I often felt people didn't like me for who I was so sometime around middle school I began choosing one close friend and then doing everything possible to be just like that girl because everyone seemed to like her so much more than they liked me. This, of course, didn't work, pushed that girl away, and I'd lose a friend. This happened over, and over, until I got to high school and I had zero close friends except for the one who didn't go to public school. As a result I absolutely despised high school, no less for the fact that due to all of my mimicry I had completely lost touch with who I was and was no longer an individual. It took me all four years of college to finally figure out who I was and when I did, an amazing thing happened:

People liked me.

So I tell this to my daughter, who is still in elementary school and easily moldable, and explain that she should just be herself regardless of what other people think, and that it's so not worth it to try to blend if she doesn't because who wants twenty of the same exact cookie-cutter people when she can be one in a pool of a thousand? And I daydream that due to this conversation she becomes exactly who she was meant to be, and that she allows her individuality to mold and shape her. Wow. Every mother's dream.

I hope I'm as good of a mother as I imagine I could be. All I have to go on is the example from my own mother and, let's be honest, she's pretty darn amazing. She did, in my completely unbiased opinion, a fabulous job with her own four daughters and I can only hope to do half as well as she did, and does. It is my goal to keep her around for as long as possible, regardless of her cancer, so that she can help me when that time comes. My children deserve to know their grandmother (who wants to be called Mimi. SO adorbs). I hope and pray and assume that they will.

Cheese and Whine

All I want to do today is complain.

It started with an email from Old Navy, which is having a big sale on coats. I desperately need a good warm winter coat. But the Old Navy store we had went out of business and left our mall meaning that in order to get cheap, decent clothing I have to drive for an hour. Complaint number one.

It's a cold, dreary day, and I'm dreaming of Panera. And there's nothing around here that is remotely close to being like Panera except for the local coffee shop, which sells paninis, wraps, some sandwiches, and a soup of the day. The soup is pretty much never a vegetarian option, and even if it were it's nothing like the black bean soup at Panera. Complaint number two.

Aaaand number three: my wonderful fiance needs a coat too and wants to go with me to Old Navy to look for one. He works today, meaning we're waiting till tomorrow. Otherwise I would go today. ***nothing against you, Clyde darling, I love you!***

And everywhere nearby with an Old Navy also has a Panera. Guess I'm getting my fix tomorrow instead of today.

OR. I find the recipe and go to the grocery store to buy the stuff to make my own black bean soup. This is, honestly, the most likely outcome.

On a different note, yesterday I spent the ENTIRE morning before work, from 9am till 3pm, sorting out my clothes for storage/Goodwill, cleaning and rearranging my bedroom, dragging a five shelf bookcase in from the garage and up three flights of stairs (followed by six boxes of books), organized the bookcase, washed my curtains, made some pizza, read a bit of a book, and then started my job at 3pm as usual.


I am very proud of myself and love love love how my room turned out. It's also very exciting to have half of my books back after they spent a year in the garage as yesterday was the anniversary of Emily's move home from CT.



Both pictures were taken with my phone. I was too busy for it to occur to me to take pictures as I went. These ones were only taken so my friend could see how things were going!

*sigh* Off to the supermarket...

Oh Great, Deep Thought...

As most of you know, my job is exceptionally boring, so to alleviate boredom I have various DVDs playing in the background. For awhile it was Gilmore Girls. Then it was NCIS. Once I ran out of those it became various films such as the Pirates trilogy, and often times it has been the Lord of the Rings trilogy. I have found LOTR to be a really wonderful film to have in the background, and today was a LOTR day.

When I watch films like LOTR or the Narnia films I am often overwhelmed by a melancholy feeling, or nostalgia, or even wonderment. J.R.R. Tolkein created a phenomenal world, one which it is easy to believe truly existed. It is easy to think that once upon a fairytale Elves were the dominant life force in the world, sided by dwarves and men and the occasional wizard. It is easy to believe in an ancient world based on valor and crowned in glory. A world where the Age of the Elves ends and the Age of Men begins, where there is a City of Kings, where Horse Lords rule the land, with legends and tales and honor and duty... I just can't find the words to explain what it does to me. When I watch The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe's final scene in Narnia where the four royals are crowned and they crown Peter "King Peter, the Magnificent"... Wow. Just... wow. Magnificent. Just. Gentle. Valiant. Words you rarely hear in today's society. True valor is lost. Justice is replaced by little black books and honor by little white lies. Magnificent ancient memories are made into museums or torn down for condos, people care little about the troubles of others. It's a different world we live in. And how sad for us.

How very, very sad.

I knew it, I KNEW it!

Johnny proposed, just like I thought he would!! He read my last post where I postulated the possibility and proceeded to tell me that he only wanted to dress up because it was Sweetest Day.

So here's how it happened, but to explain I have to go back five years....

Johnny and I met in college, though neither of us remembers a handshake. He ended up taking a break from Muskingum for a short while to go to Kent State, which happened to be around the same time Facebook began to get popular. I joined FB at the request of my then-boyfriend, who was also friends with Johnny, who decided to add me as a friend even though we didn‘t really know each other.

He eventually came back to Muskingum and one day I was walking up the hill through the field across the street from my house just as Johnny was walking up Lakeside Drive to class and he called "Hello Emily Blood!" to me, and I called "Hey Johnny Cross!" back!

So, coming back to the present... We spent the morning getting ready for Muskingum's Homecoming, beginning with the parade. As I am a sorority alumna we met up with the other alumni in front of the president's house to watch.

Every homecoming also includes an alumni/actives sorority meeting, which originally I had intended to skip but as I got to talking to the other alumni I ended up feeling I should probably go. So I did, and Johnny went to the football game against John Carroll, which I joined him for at halftime once the meeting had finished.


I don't understand football, but it was fun just the same.

Afterwards we went right back to my house where my mother decided I needed to do my chores before leaving to go out for dinner. I still needed to shower and put my face on and Johnny needed to fix his hair and I ironed his new dress clothes… Because of this, we didn't leave for dinner until 7:30pm.


Originally we were going to go to a place called Muddy Miser's, but as JC was in dress pants, dress shirt, tie and sweater and I was in a cocktail dress we felt we were just a little overdressed. After driving around looking for somewhere to eat and making a couple illegal U-turns and yelling at each other a little we decided to go to Olive Garden.

Wine, pasta, chicken marsala, salad, breadsticks, and PUMPKIN CHEESECAKE. We both got a piece, and I brought mine home to finish later, and some older man who was sitting at a table down the way told us as he was leaving that it was our fault he had also ordered the Pumpkin Cheesecake. :) You’re welcome!

After all of this we drove back to New Concord for a stroll around the moonlit campus. It was unfortunate that wearing heels and only being two and a half weeks out of surgery had really annoyed my knees, but I brought a pair of casual shoes to wear for the walk. At first I thought he was going to lead me to the spoonholder (a gazebo-like structure that covers the drainage hole in the college's lake) and I was going to roll my eyes at just how cliché that would have been. But instead he kept walking until we were just past it and I began to think we really were just going on a stroll when suddenly he hung back. “What are you doing?” And suddenly he was on one knee, on a random place on the sidewalk, pulled out a box, and said "Emily Diane Blood, I love you. Will you marry me?" It took me a few minutes and his explanation for me to realize he proposed in the exact spot where he said hello to me all of those years ago!


Of course I said yes. :)

Johnny and I wanted a picture taken of us in all our glory (and to show off my new bling) so we went over to the house where some of our mutual college friends live to have them help us out. Three of the four girls weren't home and the other was in the shower so we had one of my newest sorority sisters take the picture while we waited for D to be clean. What really stinks is that I thought I looked pretty darn good last night, but every picture taken of me looks terrible! However, I will post one of those pictures anyway.

And there you have it! We have no idea when, where or how but we’re working on it. We’re both very, very happy and it’s a little hard to fathom (someone at church today referred to JC as my fiance and I did a small double take) but we’re positive that we were made and meant for each other and pray that God uses our relationship and our marriage for His glory.

Walk a Mile More

I managed to walk all over town yesterday all my by lonesome for the first time since before my surgery. Other than the pain I was in by the time I got home, it was simply marvelous.

This week is a rather boring one, moreso than usual, but even so I'm SUPER excited for this weekend. Johnny works all week instead of having Wednesday off as he usually does, so he has the full weekend to enjoy for once! And it just happens to be Muskingum University (*cough*College*cough*)'s Homecoming, so we're going to the parade on Saturday morning and then the game Saturday afternoon (I have never, ever, gone to a Muskingum football game in all the years I've lived here) and then we're getting all snazzied up and going out to dinner at Muddy Miser's in Zanesville! I bought a beauteous little black dress for way too much money that I cannot wait to wear. Knowing that he has talked to both of my parents and is already in possession of a ring I like to think Saturday will be a special day... but I'm not counting my chickens. Much. ;)

Today is the most beautiful breezy fall day so I took the opportunity and drove my car on some back roads to places where I know I can see for miles and miles and took pictures. Now, I'm a terrible photographer, I admit it, but I like to take pictures anyway.


















I just wish all trees changed color at the same time so that there wouldn't be so much green at first and there would be less bare trees when there IS color. If that made sense.

PLUS Johnny and I took a little trip to Historical Zoar, OH, on Sunday. It's right down the road from his church and houses The Tavern, which has some rather tasty food and is where we had lunch.


















Walking around after that was a little tough for me, but I'm stubborn and limped around anyway. In some ways it felt like a mini-vacation, and I love love love historical stuff. Plus we ran into a fellow Muskie and got to catch up!

Happy 22!!

Today my baby sister turns 22! How insane is that??? And in just a few months she'll be getting married to the guy she's been dating since middle school. Now, how she did that I've no idea, but whatevs they're finally getting married and for aesthetics I am the maid of honor.

We actually celebrated her birthday yesterday with an ice cream cake from DQ that they painted with flames per my request and then we bought an Iron Man cake topper. She was kind of really weirdly excited...


















The Iron Man part actually lights up, which totally added to the flames aspect of the thing. Slightly ironic to have a flaming ice cream cake...

Anywho, we ate a lovely dinner that my older sister Jennie cooked while I was upstairs working and freezing to death. There's nothing more cozy than being upstairs in a candle and twinkle light lit room working your butt off while the lovely smells of a delicious dinner fill your nose.

We ate as a family for the third time in two days! This is unheard of at my house anymore, usually we fend for ourselves because we're all on different schedules. As soon as we were done we had to do the cake because Dad and I had to get back to work. In fact, I was ten minutes late due to eating the non-chocolate parts of the cake. Mom and I set it up, lit the candles and then sang Happy Birthday in harmony, our little musical family tradition.

Then she opened her big present. Mom and Dad bought her more of the heavy dishes she registered for at Bed Bath and Beyond so now she has four place settings instead of just two!

Anyway, I'm off to go shower and then bend my leg a lot because apparently if I don't get my left leg back to full motion by tomorrow at 11am my doctor will knock me out and do it for me, and as I'm driving myself that would be really bad news. Wish me luck!